Written by: Kerrington Sweeney
~Romans 12:2 “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.”
…Do you ever feel that God just sometimes passes over you in blessings?! Do you sometimes get feelings of neglect and envy, when others receive blessings and you don’t?
Not long ago, I was experiencing these painful feelings on a whole new level. As I watched tons of people on my left and on my right…(literally, we were all sitting in a church pew.) Each of them were receiving high-substantial financial blessings. I watched people, literally cut in front of me (in the pew) to begin blessing the people around me. Not a one came to me. I felt so unworthy of this “blessing.” I felt over-looked, past over and yes, even neglected. I felt like I wasn’t worthy enough to be sewn into. Like I had no purpose or any future prosperity.
This was most definitely NOT how God wanted me, as a Daughter of the Almighty King, to be feeling and yet I still was feeling it anyways. I’m human. I feel pain at times.
Now of course, me not receiving a financial blessing that day, wasn’t at all because God was punishing me horribly or He was terribly disappointed in me. In fact, in that very powerful moment, I truly believe with my whole heart…that God actually was giving me a different type of gift.
It was the gift of learning a very profound important life-lesson. In those moments, a total revamp of my realization on blessings was birthed directly into my heart.
~Ezekiel 36:26 “Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.”
Walking away from this situation with a forever changed mindset. It’s not always a pain-free process when a change of our heart happens but, it’s worth it. It’s normal for us to feel pain and sometimes even have anger about these types of situations involving change…because we feel like we don’t truly need this change to take place in our lives. These are the same feelings, I experienced that day.
~Hebrews 12:11 “For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.”
Now, I must mention one more thing before closing…the really only unfortunate part of being blessed with one of these important life lesson-learning experiences…it isn’t really a tangible gift. It’s not something you can hold in front of you, or eat, or wrap-up all pretty in paper, with a cute red bow. This is something you can’t even purchase with all the money in the entire universe.
These profound God-ordained, life lesson moments are what will change your life forever and will continue the amazing process of shaping you and cultivating you into the very person, that God has truly called you ultimately to be.
~Psalm 51:10 “Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.”
Never feel neglected or passed over. God may just be blessing you with an important life-lesson. Sometimes, you can’t really see it’s ‘fruit’ before going through a little bit of a process of pain and then after awhile you come into a brand new realization.
Ultimately, you will always walk away from situations, such as this, either radically changed or with an important deep thought to continue to ponder about changing your life-style of living. Never forget, God doesn’t just “pass over” His children; He blesses us beyond our own understanding.
Until Next Time,