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{Love} When I made Love, my idol. 

Written By: Kerrington Sweeney

Leviticus 26:1(a)  “Do NOT make idols…”

There I was, 18 years old and I already was creating myself an idol that would eventually lead to destruction. This idol was something I desperately wanted, craved, and thought about on a daily basis. This something, I was willing to do anything for.
That idol was….Love.

This crippling condition drove me to the extremes of wanting any young man that would show interest and give me some sort of attention. I was whole-heartedly willing to put aside my standards, lay down my plans and dreams for a future God-Written love story; In desperate hoped that someone, ANYONE would have me.

It was in a Sunday Church Gathering, that I had a moment of conviction about this idol. When I had seen a beautiful loving couple walk into church and my first thought was “Why can’t that be ME?! Haven’t I been patient and served you well enough God?!?”

When those last words were thought, I just knew something was wrong. A hardness began to cover my heart.

Well enough? What am I even talking about?!… I could never serve God ‘well enough’ to receive that as my reward, so to say.
How did I come to this point of assumption of earthly blessings from God?

I carried a demanding-selfish heart of expectation. 

Ouch. I know. Pretty harsh, right?
I felt the need to get on my knees at the altar that particular Sunday morning. I began to weep as I recalled all the demands and expectations I had ‘put’ on God.
My idol had won. I was beyond consumed.
I stepped back from my situation and began to realize that, that so-called void in my heart that started this mess in the first place, could have easily been filled if I was to seek God first, before I sought after my own selfish earthly desires.
“Anything I put before my God is an idol.

Anything I want with all my heart is an idol.

Anything I can’t stop thinking of is an idol.

Anything that I give all my love to is an idol.”

—Jimmy Needham (Clear The Stage)
Today, I summon you to stop. Examine your heart. Do you have an idol?

If so, Give it up to God! Let Him fill any of your heart-voids.
Never forget dear friends, that YOU are LOVED.
Until Next Time,

~Kerrington

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1 thought on “{Love} When I made Love, my idol. ”

  1. When I was dating my now-husband, I kept him stored up as an idol from day one. Our relationship was and is good- we tried to lift each other up in God, we were good to each other, and we stayed pure until marriage, but I was so consumed with making sure I got to “keep him” and that I didn’t get heart broken, that I made him an idol. God is good, and still allowed our relationship to continue and grow, and he gave us a very good marriage, but I have gone through a lot of conviction about how I put my desire for love above God, and put my fear above trusting God.
    Thankfully, He is a good and gracious God 🙂

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