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{There Is a Time} A Time For Everything

Written By: Carrie Arnold

It had overtaken me. Actually, it had overtaken my trellis. When we moved into our home almost 4 years ago, there already existed a stone back patio complete with a chimenea, an evergreen bush, and a wooden trellis. As it was spring when we moved in, the trellis was already blooming. It was covered in green leaves and vines, climbing this way and that, as well as beautiful flowers. It wasn’t until a stranger drove past our new home, knocked on the door and asked to see our trellis that I finally grew curious enough to ask what plant varieties had been originally planted. She informed me that there were Wisteria and Clematis. I didn’t know much about them but they sure did catch the eye.

Next follows a montage of repeating pictures through the seasons. During the first summer, I battled the beetles that dive bombed our patio during picnics. In the next spring, I discovered my severe allergy to the evergreen bush. When our second summer rolled around, I did some research to combat the beetles. As I sprayed them with natural oils, sometimes the insects fell off, most of the time into my curly hair, which sent me shrieking. Somewhere along the way I embraced the tangled beast and started pruning it back, most of the time because the vines were winding under my siding. Eventually I grew to enjoy the early summer mornings or late sunsets spent pruning the vines and leaves to make way for new growth.

I don’t have a green thumb but being curious-natured, I do have a desire to learn coupled with a strong desire to conquer. Since this has been an unusually warm winter, I decided to go to work with my shears in hand. As the robins sang in late February, I let my bare feet sink into the damp, cold earth. I have never done a winter pruning, though I should have before now according to the gardening books. I un-wove the vines and trimmed them back, leaving a few buds. I bent down low and cleared out seasons of growth and tangled leaves. I cleared out the old mulch. As I cut away I began to feel guilty. My sharp movements cut away new buds that were obediently responding to the warmer temperatures.

It was in this moment, the quiet moment, that I heard that still, small voice whispering “It’s time.”

It was time for the pruning. It wasn’t time for spring and buds. That time will come; perhaps after a late winter frost or quenching spring rains. God’s word speaks extensively about timing. His world sets the stage for guiding us through the seasons of life by using creation to show us the way. The most famous passage about timing, Ecclesiastes 3, is a beautiful dichotomy of creation. God’s world and our lives are separated into time; a time for beginnings and endings, a time for striving and resting, a time for dormancy and a time for growth.

I hope and pray my beautiful flowers never stop growing and climbing that trellis. It was planted with purpose and tended with care. May the same be said of me. I have been created with a purpose and a calling. My journey will have a beginning and an end. I have had moments of striving and resting. I have found myself in seasons of staying put or struggling to find my way but it is the moments of growth that challenge me the most. Those seasons are not easy and often times leave me feeling awkward, but it is God’s time. As I finished the pruning that warm February morning, I found myself smiling. I looked down and maybe saw a bit of green on my thumb underneath the dirt. The struggles of the pruning will not only produce flowers come spring but it reminded me of God’s pruning in my life. He desires beauty from my growth and His pruning is worth it.

Carrie Arnold is excitedly married to the love of her life, Adam. She has been blessed with 3 beautiful and healthy children. They keep her jogging through life’s obstacles. As she navigates the journey of homeschooling, teaching and serving through the local body of believers, she also seeks time to hike and pursue a passion for writing.

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{There Is a Time} A Time for Everything

Written By: Christina Rich

In the last nine months, I’ve seen the birth of my first grandson and the death of my husband only three weeks later. It appears I’ve been playing the lead character to Solomon’s Ecclesiastics 3, which should come as no surprise since I had innocently, yet wholeheartedly asked God to grant me the wisdom of Solomon. A young mother of four small children, I believed that was the answer to successful parenting and wifing. Twenty-plus years later, even though I’ve experienced some pain and disappointment, I do not regret that prayer.

“There is a season (a time appointed) for everything and a time for every delight and event or purpose under heaven—” Ecclesiastes 3:1

One of the greatest lessons I’ve learned over the years is that no matter what our season, no matter what our circumstances, no matter the goodness, no matter the badness, no matter the births, no matter the deaths, no matter the planting or the uprooting, the killing and the healing, no matter the tearing down or the building up, the weeping and the laughter, no matter the mourning or the dancing, the stones gathered or thrown away, no matter the embracing or the lack thereof, the searching or the giving up, the keeping or the throwing away, the tearing or the sewing, no matter the times you choose to keep silent or the times you choose to speak, no matter the love or the hate, the war and the peace…no matter how much life chooses to bless you or how much it chooses to spew all over you, God will never leave us, He will never forsake us, and our circumstances never dictate His goodness and His love toward us.

And, I have come to find something beautiful in even the toughest seasons. Even in death. Sometimes it was after the fact, but in the last three years, I’ve grown to learn to trust God with the peace that surpasses all understanding in every season, which keeps me from striving and keeps me in rest.

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Christina Rich is a mother of four children, a grandmother of one, a romance author with Love Inspired Historical and Forget Me Not Romances, a speaker, a photographer, and painter. She teaches writing workshops, which focus on writing for God’s glory. She also teaches classes on breaking word curses and breaking ungodly soul-ties. She is committed to carrying on the legacy her husband began before he graduated to heaven, which focuses on seeing people live in freedom, reconciling people to God through Jesus Christ, helping equip the saints for spiritual warfare, and preparing them for the return of Jesus.

You can connect with her on Facebook at Author Christina Rich, Twitter @Christinainspy, Instagram at inspyscribe, or at threefoldstrand.com

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{Saturday Mornings} Yes, But Not That Way

Written By: Julie-Ann Sanderson

The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. – Proverbs 16:9

You have an idea or dream and God says “yes” to it, but what happens next?  Most people usually start working out a plan on how they will achieve their dream.  They plan every step and sometimes for any contingency that might occur.  The plan is put into action and is going smoothly but suddenly, you hit a closed door.  It’s not going the way you thought it would.  Maybe it was “no” all the time and you misunderstood what God was saying.  The only solution is to you give up and so you do.

Hitting a closed door may be a part of God’s plan for you.  He is still saying yes but He wants you to achieve it in a different way.  It may be a longer route or a shorter one but the result will still be the same.  It is God’s plan for you that you are to carry out, not your plan for you.

As humans, we all the same tendency to map out our own lives and for some, the lives of others.  We see our life is heading in one direction and when we hit an obstacle, we immediately re-evaluate our plans and make a decision based on the assumption we come to.  This assumption comes because of our own knowledge and our past experiences.  If we assume an obstacle is the end of our dream or plan, then naturally we will stop taking that path and look for something else to put our time and energy into.

With God, however, an obstacle can be His way of letting us know that this is not the path he wants us on to achieve our goal.  He still wants you to achieve your dream it but in another way.  The obstacle stopping your plans may actually be a detour sign.  We can be so focussed on the way we think we should be going that we totally miss God’s turnoff and He has to get us back on the right track.

It is still up to us to do carry out God’s plan, but He is the one who is still in control.  If we start heading down the wrong track, He will stop us.  Our focus should not be on the plan but on the head planner.  God knows where we are going before we do.  He knows the dreams and plans we have.  He knows which ones will benefit both us and His kingdom.  He knows which ones will work and which ones won’t.

When you have an idea or dream, first take it to God.

If He says yes to it don’t plan too far ahead and be prepared for any plans you do make to change at a moment’s notice.  When they do change, don’t give up.  Instead look for that detour sign and find the path God wants you take.  The end result will be more than you ever expected it to be.

~ Julie-Ann

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{Pastors Wives} Limelight or Godlight?

Writte By: Vicki Johnson

 

As a girl growing up I had dreamed of creating unforgettable characters like the ones I’d watched on the Carol Burnett Show. I tried out for every school play that came along. The love for acting shadowed me all my life.

I met and married my husband and we talked about the call to ministry, raising children, and the possibility of incorporating my love of acting into the mix.  Twelve years and five kids later, my desire for acting was upstaged as my role as wife and mother assumed the lead.  Discontentment eased into my heart as I watched my husband thrive in his call as Pastor. All the while I withered inside as I tried to fulfill my call as helpmeet and chief nose-wiper. I hated the resentment that was growing in me.  I hated the constraints I felt were holding me back from realizing my “full potential.” Passion seeks its own satisfaction, whatever the cost.

God and I had some intense conversations, aka monologues, where I begged Him to take away my desire to act but secretly prayed that He wouldn’t. The struggle within me got pretty ugly.

I believe the Lord showed me in a dream what I really was asking for. In it I saw my husband with our children walking the streets of our town, trying to track me down. I had left them to pursue my “dream.” David got a lead as to where he would find me and it brought him to a grungy sweat shop where I slavishly labored at a sewing machine.  I glanced up and saw the desperate love on his face as he waited for me to come to him.  Then I awoke. The meaning of that dream hit me like a ton of bricks. Was I really willing to forfeit my godly calling as wife and mother for bondage to a passion?

Surrender to the Lord often comes in bits and pieces. Over a number of years the conflict in me slowly died, along with the hunger to act. My desire to be faithful to David and the kids strengthened, outweighing my need to be in the limelight. My passion now was to be content in God, seeking His will, whatever the circumstances may bring.

Whew! Lesson learned.

Then one autumn day, my pastor hubby handed me a script with five character monologues, each one was 8-10 minutes long, for each week of the Advent season. “I’d like to preach sermons based on these characters,” he said. “Would you be willing to help me out? I know you’d do a great job.”

Wha-a-t?! Is this a test, God? I thought we closed this chapter in my life. How do I answer him? The blessed contentment I had been enjoying until that point began to fade. To be honest, I sort of resented having this carrot dangling in front of me.

An intense evaluation began in my mind. Do I:

  1. Smile sweetly and respond with a quick, but decisive, “No, thanks. Not interested.”?
  2. Sit down with my hubby and give a lengthy explanation why this would be going against God’s will?
  3. Thoughtfully take the script in hand and say, “I’ll pray about it,” with no intent of doing any such thing?
  4. Say “Give me a minute,” run into my prayer closet and have a heart to heart with God?

As I sought the Lord for clarity in this unexpected scenario the verse from 1 Timothy 6:6 came to mind – “But godliness actually is a means of great gain when accompanied by contentment.”  God’s primary concern for me is not my happiness. His greatest delight is making me godly, conforming me to the image of His beloved Son, Jesus.

I gladly accepted my husband’s offer with an open heart of gratitude.

And then I realized that God delights in giving good gifts, in His time. In due season. As we have been prepared to receive them.

vicki-johnson-picVicki Johnson creates a lot of drama in southeastern Pennsylvania where she lives with her pastor hubby, David, and her daughter, Esther. She has written a Bible study entitled, “Following Christ – A Disciple’s Walk of Faith,” enjoys speaking, singing, working at 1075Alive/ WBYNFM as a part time announcer, writing her blog at Gracefilledgirl.com, and generally encouraging fellow Christians to walk in a way that pleases God. Her sign-off on the radio comes from 1 Thessalonians 5:24, “Faithful is He who calls you and He will bring it to pass.”

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Dear Future Pastor’s Spouse.

Written By: Pastor Kerrington Sweeney

Now this is not just for the wives of pastors, because like us…we have a little bit of different scenario. If you are a spouse or a future spouse to a person in ministry, or you are in ministry yourself…this post is for you.

Being a woman serving in part-time ministry and my future husband working towards a pastoral position working with youth, it keeps us very busy. Between my own pastoral ministry duties at my church, then youth volunteering, leading worship at different churches when asked, preaching ever so often, and then leading the entire young adults ministry at his church…our plates are pretty full…all. the. time.

People often have made comments in the past to us, because well honestly, how many female children’s pastors are dating while being in this potion of ministry. At first I took those rude comments and placed them so deep in my heart…but now, I have learnt over months time to properly disregard of them quickly. Because we have enough to worry about.

With these leadership positions we have been given and placed in, we have learnt sacrifice very early on into our relationship. Exactly 10 days after we started dating. It was then, on our very first date out, that I got the phone call for the position at my church.

The word Sacrifice has many meanings but, this definition stood out to me the most,

“a move intended to allow the opponent to win a pawn or piece, for strategic or tactical reasons”

This truly blessed my heart immensely. A move, intended to allow the opponent to win. Wow. This is so true. He had to move aside so early on into our relationship, in order for me to win…for a strategic and tactical reason lead by the Holy Spirit. We both had to move our hearts into a position allowing us both to win in this situation. Now may I remind you that following September before I was given this position, my plans were to officially attend his home church and get my membership. I was wanting to begin making that “our” church together. I was ready to start that area of my life with him. A new chapter. But then, God had other plans.

Something I have learnt ever so often in life growing up and even more so now in ministry, is that the plans you have always change. Word of advice for the day…DON’T MAKE PLANS. Now I’m not telling you to attempt to delete your calendar app altogether on your iPhone 6. (cause you literally can’t..I dare you, go try!) But don’t set to much in your calendars…allow space for the Holy Spirit to intervene and give you some strategic plans.

Now back to sacrifice, there has been many a times where I want to tell him something or make sure he is okay and he’s off like the races doing something for someone, or He’s already up on the platform about to lead worship or preach. There are times of lonely on this side of the fence in ministry.

When I want to visit but, he has stuff going on for church that needs to be done setting up for an event or important meetings to attend to. Men and women in ministry, like I know how he felt and how I personally felt…don’t feel like you’re the second in life. You should feel like you’re the “first” in his/her life because, he/she is so willing and so passionate about the work of The Lord that really, you’re winning in this too.

Your spouse or future spouse is selflessly serving God on a daily basis. How blessed are we truly? Now don’t you start thinking that ministry is all rainbows and butterflies because of this…honestly, its not. It’s hard. It’s tear filled. It’s an emotional place to be.

We knew what we were getting into saying “Yes” to God. We knew the possibilities, we knew the stats, we knew that this could potentially ruin and fracture the foundational moments in the beginning stages of our relationship. Yet, we said yes. The calling of ministry God had placed upon us, we then turned around and placed it at His feet. Giving Him our all. Sacrificing our own needs and wants, for the better of others.

When the days are rough…I remember this. That He has created me to boldly approach His throne and pursue His presence. The giants, the never ending expectations, the oppressing constant pressures, the corrupted voices of the enemy, and the twisted words and labels are NOT our portion. No longer, do we have to be enslaved.

Wherever you are, whatever position or title you hold. Give it to God. The days when you feel lonely, press into His rich presence. He’s there with you…never forsaking you.

He’s your shield, your comforter, your strong tower.

The next time you see the spouse or future spouse of a pastor. Pray for them. Pray that God gives them strength and endurance in the moments of exhaustion. Encourage them by asking if they need any help. Bless them with wherever you may see a need in their life…remember you don’t know what they are walking through personally when they are in the pews themselves.

Until Next Time,

~Pastor Kerrington

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{Saturday Mornings} You Just Don’t Know

Written By: Julie-Ann Sanderson

So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him. – Matthew 24:44

These days there are a lot of prophecies and interpretations about the timing of Jesus’ return.  One group says this and another group says that.  The problem with some of these prophecies and interpretations is that they are giving God a time limit or a specific time for His second coming.

The Bible clearly states that we don’t know the day or the hour of His return.  Jesus, Himself doesn’t even know it, so then how can man claim to know it?  Picking a specific time or date is in a sense giving carte blanche to mankind.  How many people would do whatever it is they wanted to do and then repent the day before if they knew when Jesus was coming back?

Giving God a time limit is something that humans have a habit of doing.  Our interpretations of what is written in the Bible can influence these time limits.  Our past experiences can also cloud our reasoning and sometimes make us see more in a Bible passage than there really is.  In some ways, the best interpretation of a passage is exactly what it says.

In the terms of Jesus’ return, it is stated plainly and simply:

But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father (Matthew 24:36)

Our job is not to put a time limit or a specific date on His return, it is to be ready for it when it does come.

We should be acting and living like the day or hour could come at any minute.  The only advanced notice we have is that He is coming.  Wasting time with trying to work out or even debating about the exact time is something Jesus does not want us to do.  Knowing when is something we really don’t need to know.

The main priority in our lives is to be ready for the time He does come.  Learning and growing to be more like Jesus is a task that should take number one spot in our lives.  If we are not ready, then we are doomed and no amount of speculation is going to save us.  Instead of guessing the time of Jesus’ return, we need to be sure of where we and others are going.

If you are living your life with a time limit, then now is the time to stop.  We just don’t know what the future will bring, nor do we know when things will happen.  God is in complete control and we must trust that everything will happen in His time and not ours.  All interpretations of what the Bible says about the return of Jesus is at best a guess.  Just a guess made by a flawed human being.

No one knows when Jesus will be returning and we can’t pick a time for Him to come.  We need to be ready now.  Are you?

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{Saturday Mornings} Remember Hope

Written By: Julie-Ann Sanderson

Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: – Lamentations 3:21

It’s one of those days where nothing is going right.  Problem upon problem adding to the mountain you already have.  You feel alone and unwanted.  Soon what was once the occasional bad day turns in a lot of bad days.

You go to others to get help but no one wants to help.  They’re all too busy dealing with their own lives to listen to your woes.  Finding someone to listen to you is a big task and it is tiring.  You’ve been left on your own and you are so worn out that you have no idea what to do next.

So, you turn to other ways to help solve your problems.  Drugs, alcohol, sex, over-eating and other demoralizing habits seem to offer a way to ease the pain and stress, or at least to forget it temporarily.  Before you know it, you have become dependent on these short-term fixes.

Eventually, these short-term fixes lose their appeal and you find another way out.  The burden is getting too heavy and there seems to be no solution in sight.  Maybe the time has come to end it all.  Leaving this world is the only option you have.  Right?

Wrong!  Those who are troubled need to be told and/or helped to remember that no matter what happens:

There is always HOPE.

Humans are the only living creatures on this planet that have the ability to hope.  We can look forward to tomorrow despite our today being the worst it can be.

Knowing that there is hope switches a light on inside of those who need it.  It makes them realize that all is not lost and there is a way to climb out of the pit they have found themselves it.  Like all things, finding the right people and things to help takes time, so they have to remember that hope is always closer than you think.

Jesus is our ultimate HOPE.

He is there not just during the good times but during the bad as well.  It is not a case of Him forgetting about us but us forgetting about Him.  All we have to do is acknowledge Him and go to Him as soon as the problems begin.  Don’t wait until things get so bad that you feel it is too late even for Jesus to help you.  Get up off the ground where you have been lying down after your last defeat, dust yourself off and start going forward with your focus upon Him.

If your problems are starting to overwhelm you:

Remember you are not alone.

Every person alive, at some point, has had the feeling that life is getting the better of them and they want to give up even if it is only for a few seconds.  Deciding how to deal with your problems is something we all should learn.  We need to know that we have Jesus there to help us.  He is the Hope that will save us and take us to new heights.

So, when you’re in the depths of despair, always remember Hope.

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{Saturday Mornings} Let Go of the Past

Written By: Julie-Ann Sanderson

Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, – Philippians 3:13

Memories are something we all have in common.  We remember the good times; the bad experiences; family and friends who are no longer with us; and so forth.  While memories themselves are not a terrible thing, it is how we react and use them that can be.

The biggest mistake a lot of people make is to cling onto memories for one reason or another.  Some do it because they wish for life to be like it was back then.  Others hold on to past hurts which result in them having grudges or seeking revenge.   There are also some who refuse to let go of the past as they are too afraid to face the future.

Whatever the reasons are for hanging onto the past, one thing is certain that in the long run, it can be unhealthy.  People who keep looking back are in danger of losing their lives completely.  They get depressed because things aren’t the way they used to be.  For those who hold grudges and seek revenge, it leads to anger and resentment as they are unwilling to forgive and move on.  They can get so caught up in the past that they lose sight of others and themselves.

God doesn’t want you to live in the past.  He doesn’t want to miss out on all the things that the future holds for you.  The past helps us to grow but it shouldn’t shape our future.  Our focus should be what is ahead, not on what is behind.  If we don’t change this then we are in danger of standing still forever in the one place.  Lot’s wife in Genesis learnt this the hard way when she turned to look at her past in Sodom.

Even though the past helps us to become the people we are now, it shouldn’t define us and it shouldn’t stop us moving forward.  We can learn from the past but we can learn more from the future. Wishing things were like they were will not help make things improve.  Our Creator created us for better things and living in the past is not one of them.

Forgiveness plays a key role in letting the past go.  As the old saying goes, we should forgive and forget.  Those who hold grudges or are out to avenge the past hurts need to forgive others just as God has forgiven them so that they can step into the future without the burdens of the past holding them back.  The longer you stay in the past the harder it will be for you to let it go.

Paul tells us in Philippians that we must forget what is behind and keep our focus on what is ahead.  Looking backwards is something that is not in God’s plan for you.  What He wants for you is in front of you.  All you have to do is let go, turn around, face forwards and walk towards it.

 

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Hell on earth, yet the best year of my life?

Written By: Kerrington Sweeney

This year was hell on earth but, at the same time it was the best year of my entire life…go figure!

Celebrating and starting this year out, by arriving home, 12 minutes into the new year from the hospital for yet another strike of a tonsillitis infection. To top that, I was carrying a lot of emotional stress from a recent change in our extended family and I was truly having a hard time fathoming the change that was beginning to take place, right before me.

Coming from 2015, which I have named in my books “The Faithless defeat year” I truly didn’t want 2016 to be a repeat of that terrible year prior. I told myself, that I would do anything to see 2016 be a better year in my life. It was January the 4th, 4 days into a brand new year. A fresh start. Learning to trust in the good, bad, and ugly…that God was always there and He is always faithful.

The months started to get going and I couldn’t believe the amount of volunteer opportunities that came my way. I was truly surprised, because I felt like I was in such a battle-some season of my life, who would want me in any place of leadership at this stage? Well, God had other plans.

I began to “pick up the pieces” of what I felt 2015 had ripped away from me and just began to sit before the Lord and ask Him “Where do you want me? Lead me Father.”

Through volunteering and pursuing God’s heart on a deeper level, I fell in love with the man of my dreams. The one I had been praying for. The one who met everything on my little list of “I hope He has…” He was placed in my life for such a time as this…and as I look back I don’t think I could have went through this past summer without him.

The first step we took hand in hand as a dating couple…even if it was just around the block, we had no clue, we had just entered into a place of war in our lives. An unknown place. A place of finding a new balance. Filled with fears, emotional highs and lows. A place of finding pure love in the culture we live in.

It was…

10 Days of just two.

10 Days of joy.

10 days of sweet contentment.

10 Days without worry.

10 Days without fear.

10 Days without anyone “looking up” to us.

10 Days of just Joshua & I getting to know each other on new levels of vulnerability.

It was on the 10th day of our happily ever after relationship, I received a phone call on our first date night out at a local coffee shop. This call would make or break our relationship. This call would mould us into the people we are today. This call would change our lives drastically forever.

The very next day early in the morning, I was hired as a Children’s Pastor at a church, 2 towns away from mine at the age of 18. I left the church that day after being officially hired, with excitement and mounds of fear. Anxious thoughts, unsettled emotions and complete unrest, swirled around me as I attempted to ‘hold it together.’

Joshua & I were no longer, just Joshua & I.

We had just stepped into something so fresh. I had no words to describe the emotions I was experiencing through that time. All I could do was chain myself to the words of hope the Lord had given me: You were created to be fearless, by the fearless one.

The Giants would come, the many never ending expectations would come, the oppressing constant pressures would come, the corrupted voices of the enemy would come, and the twisted words and labels on us would come. But we knew, they were NOT our portion. We knew we didn’t have to be enslaved. We knew what we were getting into saying “Yes” to God. We knew the possibilities, we knew the stats, we knew that this could potentially ruin and fracture the foundational moments in the beginning stages of our relationship. Yet, we said yes. The calling of ministry God had placed upon us, we then turned around and placed it at His feet. Giving Him our all.

Exactly 50 days later, I had come home one night from a late night of working, prepping for our up-coming summer camps at the church and grabbed a hand full of mixed nuts (A common thing for me…with my love for very salty snacks) …it was then that I discovered how quickly you can go from breathing normally to struggling to breathe within seconds. I had never experienced this before.

It was then, that I began yet another difficult, searching quest with the medical system, to attempt to figure out what had triggered this anaphylactic reaction so suddenly.

2 months later…in one weekend I experienced 3 more anaphylactic reactions back to back, 3 more ambulance rides and 3 rounds of Epinephrine. My allergy testing that was scheduled for this coming February 2017 but, with the severity of my situation it got bumped up immediately, to the following Thursday after that terrifying weekend fighting for my life.

I can truly say after having these anaphylactic reactions, these were some of the most petrifying moments of my entire life. Realizing that I was beginning to have a reaction all I could think about was what happened previous times.

The moments those epi pens were jabbed into my legs, tears would roll down my face, as a shock went through my entire body and simultaneously the leg that was shot went instantly numb. I couldn’t feel my leg whatsoever. My breathing patterns didn’t really change and I began to hear sirens from up the road.

Hearing my Mom’s comforting words from last time began to be spoken over me once again: “They are coming for you honey, just relax.” Onto the ambulance stretcher I went multiple times, still struggling to breath and take a deep breaths. After receiving some oxygen and breathing treatments I was well on the mend.

It’s petrifying moments like these that you are reminded to love and live to the fullest every single second of your life. The moment that life flashes before your eyes, a new sense of gratitude is restored to full capacity.

After my allergy testing appointment that following Thursday, I finally had an answer as to what had been going on in my body. The Specialist had confirmed that I have Idiopathic Anaphylaxis. This type of Anaphylaxis is caused without any recognized external triggers. Basically, my reaction episodes were not caused by something I had eaten or was exposed to, but rather by my own immune system. He is very hopeful that these were isolated events and there is a 77% chance that they will never re-occur again. He has prescribed some very clear instructions as to how to keep my immune system in check, lowering the risks of another anaphylactic reaction.

Through it all, I cling to this verse so tightly:

“…when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.” —Isaiah 43:2

2016, you sucked. Although, at times you rocked.

Here’s to a healthy and prosperous 2017. Thats a wrap.

Until Next Time,

~Kerrington

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{Saturday Mornings} Failing to See Potential

Written By: Julie-Ann Sanderson
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, – Ephesians 3:20
What is potential?  According to the Oxford Dictionary, one of the meanings of potential is “Latent qualities or abilities that may be developed and lead to future success or usefulness.”  It is something we all have, so why do we fail to see it in others and why do we sometimes fail to see it in ourselves?
Underestimating another person is something we are all guilty of doing.  We can be blind to the abilities and talents of others especially if we have known them for a long time or we haven’t bothered to get to know them enough to realise what they are capable of doing.  It is truly a case of judging a book by its cover and by failing to see their potential, we fail to help them to achieve it as well.
Failing to help others to be the person God wants them to be can also be detrimental to us.  It can show others how self-centered we can be when we miss out on helping others find their potential.  Our friends value our opinions and when we ignore their attempts to find out what they can do, the damage that is done can sometimes be irreparable.  When we do realise what they can achieve it makes us feel sad and in some ways ashamed because we made the wrong assumptions or choices in regards to what they can or can’t do.
We all have skills and abilities that lie dormant within us and failing to find out what they are can be just as bad as failing to see them in other people.  God has placed inside us everything we need to make our lives a success for both Him and us.  Most of the time we start finding out what our potential is – maybe in a dream or a vision or a passion that comes from out of nowhere or in some other way. Whichever way it starts, it is up to us to recognise it and do something about it.  We have to overcome fears and the failure of others to see the potential within us to use our potential for the glory of God, the one who gave it to us in the first place.
God wants us to have a life full of potential, which is more than some of us can imagine for ourselves or for others.  He doesn’t want us to fail in either finding it or helping it grow.  We need to learn to look for potential and to do something with it.  For others, it may be encouragement, support or understanding e.g. listen to those ideas, read that story or to simply join with someone in prayer to find out if God is in it.  Even if nothing comes of it, then you can go away with the knowledge that you didn’t fail the other person.
As for ourselves, when that seed of potential sprouts, we need to explore our options, seek advice from others and most of all pray to God to show us where He wants us to go.  Any skill, ability or interest that we are passionate about is there for a reason.  It forms part of the gift of potential God has for us and failing to see it is throwing that gift back at God.
The potential you have and the potential others have has been placed there by God to further is Kingdom.  Don’t make the mistake of failing to see it.
~ Julie-Ann